Kelly Clarkson-Because of You

I will not make the same mistakes that you did
I will not let myself cause my heart so much misery
I will not break the way you did
You fell so hard
I've learned the hard way, to never let it get that far

Because of you
I'll never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side
So I don't get hurt
Because of you
I find it hard to trust
Not only me, but everyone around me
Because of you
I am afraid

I lose my way
And it's not too long before you point it out
I cannot cry
Because I know that's weakness in your eyes
I'm forced to fake, a smile, a laugh
Every day of my life
My heart can't possibly break
When it wasn't even whole to start with

Because of you
I'll never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side
So I don't get hurt
Because of you
I find it hard to trust
Not only me, but everyone around me
Because of you
I am afraid

I watched you die
I heard you cry
Every night in your sleep
I was so young
You should have known better than to lean on me
You never thought of anyone else
You just saw your pain
And now I cry
In the middle of the night
For the same damn thing

Because of you
I'll never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side
So I don't get hurt
Because of you
I tried my hardest just to forget everything
Because of you
I don't know how to let anyone else in
Because of you
I'm ashamed of my life because it's empty
Because of you
I am afraid

Because of you
Because of you

Kehidupan Ku Sekarang

Assalamu'alaikum bloggers...

wahh.. udah lama kaga posting nih. maap yak ._.v sekarang udah sibuk banget sih #eaaa xP

sekian lama lama kaga posting, sekarang gue mo posting tentang kehidupan gue di SMK nih

cekidot!

alhamdulillah, di SMK gue kesampean juga buat jadi OSIS ^^

awalnya gue udah nyamaaaaaaann banget sama OSIS, senyaman gue sama JKC. sampe suatu hari gue dikasih tau Mupid kalo ada kakak2 kelas yang benci sama sikap & tingkah laku gue yang "aktif"

setelah gue dikasih tau semuanya, gue & Mupid langsung ngadep Pak Mahmud selaku pembina OSIS. gue, Mupid, & Pak Mahmud saling sharing.

hari ini adalah jadwal rutin rapat mingguan OSIS.

gak kayak biasanya yang semangat banget buat rapat OSIS, hari ini gue ngerasa pengen langsung cabut pulang aja daripada nantinya gue di cemberut-in sama kakak2 kelas yang benci sama gue. yaa.. dengan nekat gue ikut rapat OSIS, & bener aja, gue di kacangin abis sama kakak2 kelas yang benci sama gue itu! Ya Allah... sabar aja gua mah. gue tetep sapa mereka, tetep senyumin mereka. yaa.. walaupun respon mereka... yaa... begitulah :(

pas rapat OSIS dimulai, gak kayak biasanya yang ngebuka & nutup rapat ketua OSIS ato wakil nya. tadi, yang ngebuka rapat & nutup rapat tuh Pak Mahmud

setelah rapat dibuka, Pak Mahmud langsung to the point ngebahas masalah yang ada diantara gue & kakak2 kelas yang benci gue itu. semua OSIS diem & sesekali ngeliat gue. gue sih pasang tampang melas aja yaa.. soalnya kata Pak Mahmud "cuma ada beberapa orang aja yang tau" jadi yaa.. gue pura2 gak tau masalah itu.

Pak Mahmud sempet bilang kalo masalah ini bukan yang pertama kali di OSIS, karna taun lalu sempet ada masalah yang hampir sama dengan masalah yang sekarang ini.

Pak Mahmud juga bilang kalo masalah ini harus segera diselesaikan. kita dikasih waktu 1 minggu buat nyelesaiin masalah ini, & kalo minggu depan belom juga ada perbaikan, Pak Mahmud ngundurin diri jadi pembina OSIS. huaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa... gue mo nangis dengernya! gue gak mau cuma karna masalah ini, sampe ngebikin Pak Mahmud mundur. kalo Pak Mahmud sampe mundur, gue bakalan nangis kejer kali :"(

yaa.. demi gak mau nya Pak Mahmud mundur, gue mau secepatnya bikin ni masalah selese. gue gak mau ngebebanin Pak Mahmud lagi. gue mau OSIS gak cuma keliatan nya aja kompak, tapi kita emang bener2 kompak.

Pak Mahmud, saya bakal secepat mungkin ngembaliin situasi balik lagi kayak dulu. dimana semuanya baik2 aja & jadinya kompak. saya gak mau Pak Mahmud sampe ngundurin diri jadi pembina OSIS. gak mau!

gue pengen OSIS & JKC tuh sama. selalu ada di hati gue. selalu kompak. selalu menjadi yang terbaik.

I LOVE JKC & OSIS !!! :*

udah dulu yak posting-an nya. mo coba SMS kakak2 yang benci gue nih. hehehee.. semoga keadaan nya bakal membaik. aamiin allahumma aamiin... ^^

wassalau'alaikum.. :)